My father-in-law is out of hospital but will have to go back for a biopsy on Tuesday. They found two tumours around the throat/tonsils area. Please pray for a good outcome for the test. GK flew to Malaysia this afternoon to see his father and also to provide support for the family.
HE WILL CARRY YOU
There is no problem too big
God cannot solve it
There is no mountain too tall
God cannot move it
There is no storm too dark
God cannot calm it
There is no sorrow too deep
God cannot soothe it
If he carried the weight of the world upon His shoulders
I know my brother that He will carry you
If he carried the weight of the world upon His shoulders
I know my sister that He will carry you
He said 'come unto me all who are weary and I will give you rest'.
There is no problem too big
He cannot solve it
There is no mountain too tall
He cannot move it
There is no storm too dark
He cannot calm it
There is no sorrow too deep
He cannot soothe it
If he carried the weight of the world upon His shoulders
I know my brother that He will carry you
If he carried the weight of the world upon His shoulders
I know my sister that He will carry you
HE WILL CARRY YOU
I watched this video on my sister's blog and it was so touching.
My sister wrote this on her blog "He made a video "Goodbye Message". It was meant for me to watch it while I was away from him. It was shockingly touching. He was in tears telling me that he loved me and to remember him, everyday".
Deep black hole
Sweet sleep where are you?
sweet sleep you escaped me
I am exhausted, where are you?
My mind getting cloudy
O hole where are you leading me?
it is very dark and I cannot see
it is getting darker and darker
Where did the sun go?
did someone turn off the light?
I am alone. I am scared.
Sweet sleep where are you?
Sweet sleep you escaped me
I am exhausted, where are you?
Please come and let me sleep.
I'm all alone, I am scared
please let me go and dont take me into that hole
it is very dark and I cannot see
it is getting darker and darker
it's taking me into the big black hole
no, not more sadness, pain and despair
no, please dont sucked me in
I am spiralling into the deep black hole
oh please let me go
We received news that my father-in-law is very sick. He is in ICU in Subang Hospital, Malaysia. His condition has stabilised but they will have to conduct more tests. Can you please remember him in your prayers.
I liked my father-in-law. He is very quiet and gentle. He is kind and generous and has always provided well for his kids. Most of his children were educated overseas and he took good care of them. From stories I heard, he was always generous with them lavishing them with money and overseas trips. He has never shown displeasure, given any unkind look or said anything unkind or harsh to me. My eldest son adores his grandfather and I think the affections are mutual.
I admire my mother-in-law too for all she has gone through and being a wonderful wife and mother.
We all make mistakes in life and not letting our mistakes rule our lives and to come out with head held high is courageous and admirable.
When things are going well it's easy to live. It's only when you are down in the dumps and your whole world seems to crash down on you that you wonder how you can go on living. I have often heard about people suffering from depression and couldnt even get out of bed but I could never understand how that is possible. Well guess what? I had a small taste of that recently and wished I could crawl in a hole and hibernate for a while. Unfortunately I couldnt find a hole my sons didnt know about (haha) so couldnt hide. Oh well!
So, I guess my solution was to hide/escape by listening to music. Yes, music is food to my soul and spirit. Should have thought about that earlier. Darn!
What else did I do? I wrote reminders & notes to myself, sit in the morning sun to get my daily dose of Vitamin D - I find sunshine has an uplifting effect and did some pruning and raking in the garden.
What else can I do? hmmm not sure. Actually there are lots I can do but they are not options for now. On the other hand, I'm thinking about getting a punching bag. I heard it's good therapy :)
I realize that in life I didnt really have a plan to cope with down times. Now is a good time to plan for that.
LeSsONs i LeaRNed anD am lEArniNg :
An action has many reactions.
An action can lead to many consequences.
What sorrow means - you wont know it till you experienced it.
We all wear many different hats and masks.
Life is separated by a very thin line between life and and death - that saying in the twinkle of an eye is sounding quite true.
You can hide the pain but eventually it will come out, somehow and somewhere.
Whether I like it or not, my social background, childhood experiences, culture, ethnicity ... do affect who I am . Doesnt excuse the behavior or take away personal power to change but knowing and understanding some of the cause and effect helps.
I'm happy to let you know that Joel is feeling better. According to my sister's blog, he was admitted to hospital on her request. He was put on drips, given medication for stomach cramps and headache. By late afternoon he was feeling much better. Thanks for praying.
The adorable Ethaniel. He is so cute.
This is Ethaniel, my nephew. He is 6 and is younger brother to Joel. Joel & Ethaniel are my younger sister's children. Since we all live in different parts of the world, I dont get to see them often. Joel and Ethaniel are lovely boys and my sister, Chris, has done a wonderful job raising them.
My sister, Chris & Ethaniel
The most difficult thing about living away from families, is missing out on families' stages in life, milestones and family ocassions. We miss birthdays, Chinese New Year, Christmas, and all other get togethers. Of all my families, I miss my sister the most. We are really good friends and we can talk about anything and laugh over everything and nothing and have the best fun.
As mentioned earlier, I drove to Phillip Island on Friday to be with my boys. It was a gloomy day and it rained on and off. As I was not driving my usual Tarago but the Merc, I chose to travel at a slower speed than usual and to take my time and not rush. The traffic was reasonable and roads not that busy. At a roundabout I was to make a 3 o'clock turn towards Phillip Island. Half way, without any warning, my car spin 180%. It was so sudden. I was stunned at what happened. Thank God there were no cars at a close distant. Because I was driving slow and paying attention I did not lose control and the car did not spin out of control. A young man stopped to see if I was ok. He was at the roundabout when it happened and he witnessed the entire incident. He said it happened so fast he was stunned too. According to him the road was probably greasy and when it rained, it got slippery. I am just grateful that I 'escaped' unhurt and unscathed. I realized that life and death is separated by a very thin line. In one quick moment life could have been taken from me. I am grateful for another day.
It's wonderful when we get one good news after another. My youngest brother Eric and his wife Saori are expecting their first child. Very excited for them. A baby bring so many changes to your life. Nothing can compare to the life changing experiences of motherhood and fatherhood. I look forward to becoming an auntie again in 33 weeks.
On Sunday my eldest brother, Michael became a father. He and his wife had a little girl. Both mother and baby are doing fine. This is a very joyous ocassion for the GOH family as she is the first baby that carry our family name. Cant wait to find out her name. Will keep you posted.
Picture taken near the Nobbies.
My kids were in Phillip Island with their dad for a week and I joined them from Friday to Sunday. The drive usually take 1.5 hours. The weather was not that great. It was cold and wet but we didn't let it dampen the fun. For More information about Phillip Island check www.visitvictoria.com and follow the link.
